It's heartbreaking. When you find only truly enjoying yourself when it's about to end. The stick has burned too short earlier than you cared to notice, and you just want to light another cigarette just so it would go on but it's never the same as the last one. The next one will be different, and you'll have to endure it ending as well. And then perhaps your attention's caught by something else and you forget that which was just moments ago, idly taking another stick from the thinning pack like it's the first time.

1:35:00 PM, 11/7/11